The Unnamed

You are miraculously agonizing

in such a way that words cannot describe

Well, the heavy old earth did mention

that such creature have been made

Into an unnamed object called love

Is that possible to be a well-being

in such manner that the damned thing exists?

Or is it important to be what you called as perfection?

No!

Hopefully, it does not matter

Just Don't Wanna Wait

Everything started by a search
A finding of an answer for a mending broken heart
Of such an idiot condition

But not anymore!
I don't want anything hurt this mending heart
and open up the scar
to let me die, 
die of an idiot searching that will never end

I might not be Turnblad who is chosen by a charming dandy Larkin
I might not also be any Disney's princess who is helpless around the man
But I don't have the courage to stay,
to hold on and wish that this waiting will end happily
Because the prayer has been enough to guide me
And God has settled the best way for me

Ketika kau pikir aku tak tahu

Aku tahu,

Sangat, sangat tahu

Tentang apa yang kau pikir aku tak tahu

Tentang apa yang kau pikir kau bisa hindarkan dariku

Aku maklum,

Cukup maklum dengan ini

Tentang apa yang kau pikir aku tak tahu

Tentang apa yang kau pikir kau bisa sembunyikan dariku

Aku tidak marah,

Tidak pernah dan tidak bisa marah

Tentang apa yang kau pikir aku tak tahu

Tentang apa yang kau pikir kau bisa buatku tak tahu

Tenang kawan,

Kau tak perlu sembunyikan dariku

Kau tak perlu hindarkan dariku

Tanpa kau beri tahu pun aku sudah tahu

Tentang apa yang tak bisa kau beri tahukan padaku

Salatiga, Feb 14, 2012 9:48

The boy I knew

The boy I knew

Was the boy I’m in love with

The boy I knew

Was the boy I adored much

The boy I knew

Never let his friend in pain

Always been a gentleman

The boy I knew

Was the boy who thought he knew too much

Was the boy who never gave up on things he did

Was the boy who would always be smiling on his blue day

And the boy I knew

Is the boy who is in love with my friend.

Salatiga, January 26, 2012 23:45

Ada Sesuatu

Ada sesuatu.
Ada.
Pasti ada sesuatu.
Tapi apa?
Entah.


Ia hilang,
Ia terbang.
Bersama dengan apa yang ia ingin capai.


Ada sesuatu.
Ada.
Pasti ada sesuatu.


Mungkinkah ia akan kembali?
Aku tak tahu.
Mungkinkah ia akan di sini lagi?
Aku hanya bisa berharap.


Namun yang pasti,
Ada sesuatu untukku mengharapnya kembali.


Salatiga, February 5, 2012, 10:36

Missing

I really miss the night when we could share things

You, with your own days

Me, with my own works

Things are changing,

People are growing up

Will there be still me in your mind,

If I cross the line between me and you,

Then somehow managing my own future?

Show me the life I should living on

Just to justify the real world that supposed to be clarified

Even if you are not able to,

I’ll still go away and push my wings up

Don’t miss me,

You’re not accustom with it

Just remember me

As the way I should be

Salatiga, October 16, 2011 21:50

What is Us?

You walked

I walk

You went

I go

You left

I leave

Questions to be drawn,

Where'd you go?

Where'll I go?

Nothing could be answered

and nothing can be said

Is this only a drama queen?

or I just making it exaggeratedly?

When what I knew yesterday was only the past

And what I've learnt today was going to be the past

You tend to be care

You tend to be here

Somehow, your smiles are just superficial and artificial

With no harm,

I'd ask you once,

What is us? 

unidentified feeling

I remembered doing fine
Then recalling the past memories of mine

Judging every single day I've stepped

With me, with my life, with my mind, and with my heart

It's kinda boring, I guess

Without anyone else coming with me

But still, I treasuring those events

Those aren't poetic,

but what can I do?

I was left here alone

with no love to remain, even in silent

DREAMS

I have dreams

You have dreams

Let’s share ours

We are young

We are free

Countless dreams will be done

Regreted time is only the past

Focus only on our hopes

The things we want them to be true

Salatiga, March 25, 2011 (just had a nice talk with peers)